mine

this is my dream to have a small business
MINE is Milik Indonesia Negriku Esa
hahahha
sok banget kan
hehehehe
smoga bisa lancar dehh
amienn
tp gw sebenernya baru belajar aj c
if i failed
it's all right

Fainted in mall

Yesterday was an enbarassing day for me
I was fainted in a crawded mall in bandung,, specificly in BIP. Lol!!!
That was an unexpectedly moment.
At that time, I got a light stomachache then I decided to go shoping to BIP. I went shopping with papa and my momwent tu buy silicon for her new phone asa birth day present. We went shopping saparately. My farher was looking for a belt then we found a spotm suddenly I felt so sick and my surrounding became feeble and i black out. When I woke up I was layed on floor in a bag shop..
Hihihi.... Luckily I was there with my father and before I blanked out I put my hand on my father's shoulder so I didn't fall.

attacked by dengue fever

right on valentine's day i was dying
that evening i felt so weird
i got pain on my bones
my breath was hot

then late at night my mom came
i told her that i'm sick

few days after it, i'm still sick
my mom told me to take my blood

the result is positive dengue fever

i layed in hospital for 4 days
i'm not a lowed to WASH MY HAIR!!
that's terrible

yesterday, about 3 days after it i went to salon directly

me and her

i have nothing
she has everything

i lost everything
she gets everything

i'm famous because a physical defect
she is famous because a perfect face

i humaliated by people
she gets accolade from people

i hurt by the love
she joys coz falling in love

i cried of pain
she cried of joy

me and him saparated by distance and time
she and he unificated by the distance and time

lack of feelings

i logged in to my face book
then i saw a picture
i don't feel a fragile heart has broken
weird!!!
i think my heart has completed..
time heals my heart
although there is a little feeling but i think i become a brand new syara

hahaha...

i don't know maybe i'm weird but i don't know,,..
i always happy when i see a couple

maybe it's beacause i've never felt the way they're doing

hhmmm...

i prefer to be a lone (single) instead of fall into the same hole..

there is nobody here!!!!

this morning i woke up earlier
i went to my fathers office first then i decided to had a therapy before i go to my internship.
i did it because i think i came to early
my mind was right i'm the first people who arrived before 8.30 am
well it's good
i can show them that i'm not "uncle girl"
i want to have a bright carrier next
if i'm not doing the way i'm right now then i'm gonna buried
i don't have a gougers body to proud of or a handsome guy to show of
but i can show my achievements..
i hope i can trough it all smoothly

any way yesterday my father showed me something
a scholarship to spend 1 year in high school in america
wow
i have to get it
struggle harder as i can tan before!!!!!

about my plan to spend my collage period in america??
well i'm quite confuse..
actually i want to spend my hs in america then i spend my my collage period in France

i hope all my dreams will be come true

long time no posting

after 5 days no posting. i missed blogger!!
mmmm..
i wanna share a few things such as :
i chosen by the school to attend the quiz about indonesia!!
don't you think it,s a good news????
my parners are Donny and Dinda
such a pleasure!!!!

well afterwards, the most important thing that i've shown a good thing after i sliped, felt and buried because the nightmares about 1,5 years ago. but now i stand up and getting stronger.

now i know how important frendship is.... then pretending you're ok but you are fragile.
now i can laugh. grin and sing a happy song. i myself had healed itself..

this morning

this morning i woke up in a peaceful feeling
i made a step then i made another step
i optimist that every day we are getting better
i always remember about my dream
i can be any thing if i want to change the dream to a goal
i don't know may be it's just my habbit to make a fantasy before i close my eyes
then my fantasy changed to be my dream
my dream change to be my goal
my goal changed to be my future

fantasy

every night before i close my eyes, i turn off the light and let the lamp of the street shine my room through the windows. then slowly i close my eyes. i open the gate of the dream world. i knock it silently then i open the gate because i am eager to see the inside of it. i see the palace that promised the visitor (me) joyful that i would never get in reality. i fear to see it so i look inside trough the window. i see nothing. i decide to get in. because i'm so confuse i day dream and make a fantasy. i was startled when i see my sorounding changed similar to my day dream. my clothes changed, i look prettier, and the empty room changed to be an office like i' dreaming about.
since that time, i adicted to come over over and over again.
now every day i come to fantasy world and i get alot of inspirations that i can use it as a plan in reality.

my decision

there's no dream about tomorrow just think about the reality. there's a light that gonna light my way but not enough to shine on me. maybe this is the best thing that god meant to be for me. no bodies perfect and not all the perfectness bring you to the joyful of live. why every body tries to cover themself with something fake to be accepted? better to show who you are then pretending to be someone else. maybe at the begining it hurts but letter it can heals itself rather than you get sick at the end because of your fakeness. when my fate tells me that i have to be lonely ten ready or not i have to be lonely. when my fate found the mate than i welcome mat it with tears of deep pleasure.

that day is getting close

afew days more, i'm gonna lose one of my teeth.
my friend who has an experiment with bracess told me that it can killing us slowly but sure!!

my outbound experient

like i promised before, theese are my photos when i went to outbound holic. i look like monkey who just free from the zoo

(except the second photo)

my fist job

2 days ago, i went to my intership office..
when i made some steps i felt very awkward because it was tighten..
the room was very cold
my methors were sitting infront of me
she gave me 6 boxes of document
i have to arrange the doc base on the name..
i'm not finnish yet!!
i don't know every body and i just keep my mouth close
my uncle came to the room and he just daid " haha.. there are alot og things to, ya?"

ooughh me and him were acting very awkward!!

i was sick

yesterday i woke up at 12 o'clok and the i ate. after i ate i s went to sleep again.
and then i woke up a gain and then i took a bath. after i took a bath i watched tv until 11 o'clock.
when i woke up yhis morning my cold is gone...

yesterday

yesterday was my b'day!!!

i have to be happy....

many people said happy b'day to me

but i'm still hoping ricky will say it to me

day dream!!!

oh ya, my dady went to surabaya on my b'day!!!

i'm getting crazy

omg what happened to me???

i watched a talk show comedy, in the begining i was laughing but suddendly i cry...
weird,, isn't it??

i don't know what happen to me lately??

in the end of holiday

hahhhhhhhhhhhh....

tomorrow i have to do my all my rutine activities
but i'm quite exited
what will happen tomorrow

any way i wanna tell you a bout my holiday

i spend the new year eve in pondok indah where my uncle lives
even we don't burn the fireworks or firecreckers, we saw it!!
when we opened the windowwe could see the fireworks

on friday i went to ancol and i stayed for 2 nights
it was fun

the first day i watched a 4d film, unfortunately the 4d has been broken
actually if it wasn't broken it will be a trighten movie
but the 4d movie in indonesia is much more better than the movie in singapore

second, before i go home i went to outbound holic which is the newest amusement area in ancol
we get charged 50 thousand rupiah for one hours
when i did a flying fox my face hit the mattress, alhamdulillah i was okay

i had some fun!!! i wanna do it again

oh ya,, before i went to outbound holic me and my family were cycling around the ancol from one site to the other other sight.

it was nice,,...
next time i wanna go accross the beach to thousand island
but i feel sad when i saw the garbages are every where ..
iuhh dicusting!!!


i hate the people who did it