this morning

this morning i woke up in a peaceful feeling
i made a step then i made another step
i optimist that every day we are getting better
i always remember about my dream
i can be any thing if i want to change the dream to a goal
i don't know may be it's just my habbit to make a fantasy before i close my eyes
then my fantasy changed to be my dream
my dream change to be my goal
my goal changed to be my future

fantasy

every night before i close my eyes, i turn off the light and let the lamp of the street shine my room through the windows. then slowly i close my eyes. i open the gate of the dream world. i knock it silently then i open the gate because i am eager to see the inside of it. i see the palace that promised the visitor (me) joyful that i would never get in reality. i fear to see it so i look inside trough the window. i see nothing. i decide to get in. because i'm so confuse i day dream and make a fantasy. i was startled when i see my sorounding changed similar to my day dream. my clothes changed, i look prettier, and the empty room changed to be an office like i' dreaming about.
since that time, i adicted to come over over and over again.
now every day i come to fantasy world and i get alot of inspirations that i can use it as a plan in reality.

my decision

there's no dream about tomorrow just think about the reality. there's a light that gonna light my way but not enough to shine on me. maybe this is the best thing that god meant to be for me. no bodies perfect and not all the perfectness bring you to the joyful of live. why every body tries to cover themself with something fake to be accepted? better to show who you are then pretending to be someone else. maybe at the begining it hurts but letter it can heals itself rather than you get sick at the end because of your fakeness. when my fate tells me that i have to be lonely ten ready or not i have to be lonely. when my fate found the mate than i welcome mat it with tears of deep pleasure.

that day is getting close

afew days more, i'm gonna lose one of my teeth.
my friend who has an experiment with bracess told me that it can killing us slowly but sure!!

my outbound experient

like i promised before, theese are my photos when i went to outbound holic. i look like monkey who just free from the zoo

(except the second photo)

my fist job

2 days ago, i went to my intership office..
when i made some steps i felt very awkward because it was tighten..
the room was very cold
my methors were sitting infront of me
she gave me 6 boxes of document
i have to arrange the doc base on the name..
i'm not finnish yet!!
i don't know every body and i just keep my mouth close
my uncle came to the room and he just daid " haha.. there are alot og things to, ya?"

ooughh me and him were acting very awkward!!

i was sick

yesterday i woke up at 12 o'clok and the i ate. after i ate i s went to sleep again.
and then i woke up a gain and then i took a bath. after i took a bath i watched tv until 11 o'clock.
when i woke up yhis morning my cold is gone...

yesterday

yesterday was my b'day!!!

i have to be happy....

many people said happy b'day to me

but i'm still hoping ricky will say it to me

day dream!!!

oh ya, my dady went to surabaya on my b'day!!!

i'm getting crazy

omg what happened to me???

i watched a talk show comedy, in the begining i was laughing but suddendly i cry...
weird,, isn't it??

i don't know what happen to me lately??

in the end of holiday

hahhhhhhhhhhhh....

tomorrow i have to do my all my rutine activities
but i'm quite exited
what will happen tomorrow

any way i wanna tell you a bout my holiday

i spend the new year eve in pondok indah where my uncle lives
even we don't burn the fireworks or firecreckers, we saw it!!
when we opened the windowwe could see the fireworks

on friday i went to ancol and i stayed for 2 nights
it was fun

the first day i watched a 4d film, unfortunately the 4d has been broken
actually if it wasn't broken it will be a trighten movie
but the 4d movie in indonesia is much more better than the movie in singapore

second, before i go home i went to outbound holic which is the newest amusement area in ancol
we get charged 50 thousand rupiah for one hours
when i did a flying fox my face hit the mattress, alhamdulillah i was okay

i had some fun!!! i wanna do it again

oh ya,, before i went to outbound holic me and my family were cycling around the ancol from one site to the other other sight.

it was nice,,...
next time i wanna go accross the beach to thousand island
but i feel sad when i saw the garbages are every where ..
iuhh dicusting!!!


i hate the people who did it