freaking out

night is alway come and i always freaking out..
it's not about fobia of darkness, ghost or mystic things
but it's about my mind that always fly away, day dream and then suddenly i express something that anexpected ( cry, smile, and hurts ).
especially when i dream about my future
i'm afraid if i'm gonna be single for ever ( nauzubillahminzalik )
wedding is a dream of most of people including me
i also want to have someone that always right by my side as long as i live
but it's become a nightmae if i remember that i'm still alone
and when my crust prefer ti choose my friend than me
also my face and my physic condition which is terrible
i knew it but i don't know what would happen in the future
god ( Allah ) i hope you want to answer my prays
i hope i can graduated from high school on time and get the best score and i'll get the scolarship in USA
i wish i will meet my soulmate and mary him in 23 years old and my physics already normal like others and i can built my own family
i hope someday i would become a success and famous young entreprenour in 28 years old also i can beat all man entrepreneur and i can make my parents please ( buy a house on the mountain, travel around the world and everithing that i can do for them).
i hope it is not just a pray but a dream come true

Amien